Sorry my heartbeat is so loudThe thought of it pulsating in my chest disgusts me
I’ll tell it to shut up for you
I WANT TO DO THINGS ON MY OWN BUT I CANT
IM FUCKING PARALYSED
LET ME DIE
Even breathing is difficult
I’m so scared that this will hurt but I’m equally terrified that if I don’t go through with it I’ll never feel anything again.
Why is my mind trying to hurt me so much